Your Dreams All End With A Call

an update for old times

2006-03-09T01:30:12Z

god i havent updated this shit in EVER!
lol
well damn so many things r going on. drama, problems, what not.
its my life bro, how could it not have n e of these things lmfao.
well once again my life has drastically altered.
ppl i used to talk to i dont talk to n e more, ppl i didnt talk to i talk to lmao.
and so on.
i really think im not going to be opening up anymore so easily, it seems when i do think im feeling something strong its so one sided.... meaning the other doesnt feel the same. and when the toher side thinks there feeling somethign strong im not lmao.
stupid boys stupid boys.
hmm my BGGF is paranoid cauz i think im falling for this gurl in my shcool.
maybe im so over guys, so fukin confusing. maybe its time for gurls agian lol.
hmm well ive been experiancing and trying new thigns out like crazy lately.
it turns out ive become hooked on cigarettes.
i overly drink every time i drink now.
i love the herb! lmfao
and i love EVERYTHING
damn it i need to stop.
i need to find good influential friends
lmfao
ay my hands tired.
ill bbl? maybe not lmao
bye

-ruben <3

been a while

2006-01-06T01:03:41Z

its been a while since i update this thing.
well im going to attempt to write everything down seeing as to how i have nothing better to do right now.
well this past week or 10 days since i have updated have been crazy.
as i try and look back and recap everything its crazy cauz it feels as though its been like a month or two, things have changed so quickly and its crazy.
for one hmm i was talking to a boy named mickey, who after 3 days of talking called himself my b.f.
w.e i wasnt going to say nuttin cauz i thought he wasnt bieng serious. i mean common sense if i dun ask you out were not dating, talking is talking and dating is dating.
well today it came to my attention i needed to "break up" with him before he took it to far.
pobre pendejo. lmao.
hmm ive been meeting alot of ppl lately,theres alot of people wanting to talk to me, but i duno...

god i hate livejournal...
lmao.
how add bro but all of a sudden i really hate this. im deleting it.
lmao.
bye bye ima go get myself a blog or something.

-ruben <3

wtf im sleepy

2005-12-24T14:43:22Z

damn these past two days have been eventful lol.
ok well lets start with thursday.

thursday was the office sleepover/party thingy at my ranch. so everyone that works for my dad went to the ranch and we ate shit. once the music started everything was crazy lol. i love the fact that half my dads secretarys r like 19 and 20 lol. well me and natalia ended up having a lil competition of who can drink more. so yeah i ended up dead with 12 beers and 3 cups of wine. she kept going lol. w.e all drunk and shit our asses decided to get on the trampoline!!! lmfao!!! omg it was crazy. first we bumped into eachother who knows how many times. second i was wearing my loose khakis, and when i was jumping theuy fell of me and i didnt even realise until natalia started laughing lol. and then finally other things happ but i duno if i should write about it lmfao.
<3

yesterday we all woke up with the biggest fukin headaches of life. so we decided to half breakfast early and see if our headaches went away. well a lil into breakfast my phone started ringing but i couldnt'didnt want to pick up because i have no minutes . so i let it ring.
point is it turned out be justins mom, who left a voicemail. and my mom needed to use the phone cauz her nextel doesnt get signal there. wel she was nosy thought it was justin who left the voicemail and heard it.
my mom got pissed and went off on me. and made me pik up and "hear her out"
well point is his moms mad. end of story. lol
so w.e my mom and dad were mad at me and sent me to miami to stay at home alone. ow such a punishment huh?
lmao
i ended up going to a friends house like at 12, i wasnt going to stay that long but i ended up passing out over there lol.
well anywho, todays like christmas eve!!! and i cant wait o open gifts!

<3

-ruben

stupid ppl

2005-12-22T13:41:54Z

yay i have internet. for like 10 minutes though lmao.
w.e i dun really miss it tho. well today is my dads office christmas sleepover at the ranch. all the secretarys r going to be going to our ranch and sleeping over.
yesterday i went shopping everywhere, i had to finish buying all my peeps there christmas presents lol.

well i talked to danny on the phone again yesterday. it was nice to catch up with that nerd lol. and we lasted more then 20 minutes talking!
like from 12 to 2 lol.

wtf i cant login into my myspace! it says its going thru maintenance wtf it has never said that lol.

well anywho i gotta go pick out my clothes for the ranch. cauz if its cold here, i can only imagine how cold it is going to be over there lol.

ttyl. !!!

-ruben <3

boredom. so much to do.

2005-12-21T06:43:02Z

wow i havent update in like 1 week. awesome.
well i got back hoy from the ranch, ive been there since sunday. went with the family cauz we bought a trampoline and my dad needed help setting it up and what not.
the trampoline is so much fun! its like all bouncy and what not lmao! so yeah i jumped on it with my sister and brother. we had fun. i let my inner stupid ass out and i tried doing some tumble thing my sister was doing. and i fell wrong, almost broke my back and died lmao.

well i started my winter break on thursday lol. i didnt go to school thursday or friday and instead went to work. or sit my fat ass ass on the chair and boss around the secretarys lol. stupid bitches i almost got one fired for answering in spanish. fukin bitch.

uhm im tired. id un feel like writing mroe lmao.

peace homies!

-ruben <3

bored.tired. stupid black kid.

2005-12-15T00:17:05Z

im here at night school. again not doing work but rather writing in my awesome thingy called my livejournal lol.
so anyways. im waiting for my mom to come and pick me up in 20 minutes. im going to go see king kong, not exactly my idea of a fun movie but hey my family lately wants to spend "family time" and i they decided they want to go and see kink kong lol.
im so angry. my internet and cell phone were both taekn away from me by my mom lol.
i found out yesterday when she showed up at my school angry about some things lmao.
well anyways she was mad about a paper she found, actually a couple of papers lol.
ashley kristy and myself doodle random shit onto papers during journalism. things like oh ruben lvoes lalalala, ruben and lalalala fuking in a tree. ruben lalalalala, ashley lalalalal.
lmao.
well my mom found those papers. ashley! i knew it was a good idea to keep the papers! lmao
and my mom said im abusing the cell phone and inernet for things that are not productive and what not.
but w.e i guess its a good chance to learn and survive without internet and a cell phone!

today was a good day.
all of second period i fell asleep lol.
fourth period i skipped and went to uriels class and ate shit.
6th period i skipped and walked around.
i found out today this person would date me.
ashley we need to talk about this "person" lmao.
hmm hint to ashley. this person is the person thats name was in this journals first entry, the one u wrote lmao.
u know MASTER lalalala
lmao!!!!!
but i dun like this person like that.
i only want one person. lol.

theres this black kid in my night school class. i duno his name but hes black. lol. well w.e he downloaded aim for me on the computer i sue. and while i was online i was talking to all my followers and i guess the kid was reading my conversations and he found out i was gay lmao.
well point is he imed his friends and told them to bug me i guess cauz all of a sudden i get these random children im;ing me telling me shti lol.
ay the black kdis dumb tho cauz i looked over and i could CLEARLY see him talking to the ppl that were im;ing me lol.
well w.e it got annoying when i got home and they kept on im;ing me. so i told them to tell there lil black friend if he doesnt want problems he best quit his immature shit. lol

im getting sick. like i dun have the symptoms of a sick person but i randomly get these cough attacks and i end up coughing for like 5 minutes. lol
i should get some medicine. hehe

manana im going to get to check my myspace and all my other amils and shit. yay!
cauz im not going to school manana or friday. its such a waste of my time lol.
all we do is sleep and skip to other ppls classes hehe. and lunch.

i was reading this book on ating disorders with statistics and what not and it really scared me. cauz as much as i want to say ive gotten over it. i havent. and its scary cauz the statistics were saying how 10 percent of bulimics and anerexics die. and like 70 percent stay lifetime ill. and ugh that only leaves 20 percent that get over it ok.
ugh.
and then now i have ppl going up to me ins chool asking me how i lost so much wieght. i dun wana tell them cauz then there going to end up like nicole who i told my diet to, and today i saw her in the office with baca crying cauz she wante dto pass out. stupid bitch i told her not to try the diet.

i feel like eating. lol. but im trying to fast so that i wont feel guilty eating alot during the holidays lmao.
god im so fukin sick.
WTF.
n e ways.
i have succesfully been writing in this CHINGADERA for like 14 minutes now. lol. time flies cauz now its time for me to go watch king kong! like yay!!! omng!!!!
::sarcasm::
ugh.

love to u all! pinches

-ruben <3

so fukin happy!

2005-12-12T02:34:23Z

yay! today couldnt have been better!
well ok i went to international today in the morning with my dad sister and brother.
we were christmas shopping for my mom.
but i saw this beautiful red car on display that i fell in love with!
it was a chevrolet cobalt. ss coupe supercharged hehehe. sexy!!!!
well my rents deicded there going to buy it cauz im really in lvoe with it. so screw the mustang and nissan 350 i want my cobalt! lmao!
well im getting it! yay!
january or february. ugh oh well not that far away! in fact only like 2 months away haha
hmm then i went to eat at some chinese place with the family.
my sister ended up choking and my dad atempted the himlachw.e on her lmfao.
it was hilarius.
then me and my mom went to dadelan. we shopped around. i bought so many things!!! god i love abercrombie xpress and banana! and guess! and tommy!
ugh!
n e ways then i went to dolphin and shopped there also lol.
end of day!

-ruben <3

timeless recount

2005-12-10T12:27:48Z

wow how weird. i was having this dream with like dante,jolly,barbara, and everyone else that was at his party yesterday. and i remember in my dream i had to like pee or something, and i woke up and had to pee desperatel!lmao
i duno.. just a stupid lil random thing there.

ok so again today i ended up somewhere else in the morning. my mom says maybe my old habits of sleep walking when i was little are coming back. i really hope not.on like monday i woke up in my sisters room? and i had no memory of how i got there lol. on wensday i ended up downstairs on the couch. no memory of how i got there. and today i woke up downstairs in front of the sliding mirror.
lmao.
ugh one of these days ima end up outside my damn house raped by michael or something! lmao!!!
gosh that would be uhm crazy.

yesterday i went to dantes party. it was fun. anything with jolly and las putas is awesome lmao. me and jolly were totally checking out some kid, who ended up bieng disgusting! but i liked his AE shirt lmao. i met a lesbian girl caled leonella. i fell in love with her name and her haha. i lov lesbians. and she was really pretty and cute. w.e me and her got along really well, jolly was maybe even a tad bit jealous hahah. i love my jolly though!
so w.e we were chillin, we got bored of la musica after a bit so we went outside and were just eating shit. some other two boys there started messing with the securtiy lol, i scalled the fence to get into the pool and the security told us h would call the cops if we didnt leave thru the speakers. hahahahah

yesterday i had midterms, it went really well, considering i cheated on half my tests lmao.
i skipped 4th and went to ashleys lunch. god im such a fat ass i ate so much candy! ay. now ill never get my amn six pack. lmao.
but w.e
i was passin out skittles to everyone lmao, even ppl i didnt even know. aw and i gave michelle some skittles.
shes so cute. lol
majida wanted to have a talk about how i lost so much wieght and i wa like "look bitch i aint tellin u, cauz then ur gonna try it and die."
lol

ok on to important things! on thursday was like the season finale of making the band 3!!!!!
like WTF!!!!
omg it was the best. i fukin love aundrea. ugh. i used to think aubrey was hot. but i just dun see it no more lol. and i think shannon is def the most sexy one in that group!
well yeah bro that show has gotten me to cry like fukin 2 times this season, when aundrea was not gonna make it that eopisode diddy was pikin on her, and the season finale when her and aubrey had there lil breakdown haha
ay i love them!

yesterday "he" im'ed me. him bieng justin.
its so wierd.
i was seriously almost over him, and then he im'ed me.
i duno what to make of it.
given it one more day and i know for sure i would have been like w.e and over it. and now.... ugh!!!.
i fukin LOVE-d? that kid.
eveyrone keeps tellin me to forget about him, i can do better, i shouldnt be with someone who doesnt know what they want, and all this shit but i duno. i can have othe rppl. and i DO have other ppl waiting.
but its like i un want anyone else. im still to hung up on justin.
::takes deep breath:: i duno. lol

well today ima go hang out with jolly at doral isles.
hope she charges her camera cauz i feel camera whoreish today haha
maybe ill tell her to go to the movies with me cauz i wana see SO many movies. ugh.
and shes leaving to chile sunday and im not gonna see her for like 2 weeks! ima miss my jolly!
ok so i guess this has been long enough.
i guess i should be getting ready for doral isles lol.

-ruben <3

here it comes from coral park

2005-12-08T02:06:37Z

so im here sitting at a desk ill probably never agin sit at, on a chair that ill never agian see (in part because i see new chairs enclosed in boxes in the corner), and im bored. lol. im supposed to be doing some classwork with my group... but theyve somehow gotten into a conversation of how rockers are all future fags or how there cuban asses say "maricones!" lmao. so yeah i duno how they went from the periodic table to gay ppl, i guess its a cuban thing? lmao jk.
ugh i just noticed my hollister pants r getting to ripped from the bottom. i need to somehow cut off that part and fix it lol.
so this week has been ok. between night school and everything i rarely find time to just relax. i get home at 3 from school.and then either johnathan or emily come over and we eat shit. then 5 comes around (faster then u know it) and its time to go to night school cause traffic kills in miami.
so then i get here, start at 6, act all fake for ppl i dun like but i talk to because honestly im not going to sit in a classroom and not talk to anyone for like 3 and a half hours lol.
so yeah ive successfully made friends i dun even want. lol
so then i get out early at 9 and meet up with danny for a while. the kid swears im going to get back with him haha. stupid nerd. and then i get picked up at 9:30.
i get home and get online for a lil or finish homework. jack or jo usually call around this time only to find themselves with a ring tone over and over cauz i frankly dun wana talk cauz of how tired i am lol.
then i watch tv for a lil cauz by 10:30 i wana go to sleep and rest. i need to stop falling asleep in class.

i love 1,3,5 days. i love my 1st period history cauz that cute reffy girl;s there and i lvoe talking to her, i duno her name. lol.
i love 3rd ! i mean how can i not. lol. thats like the lets be camera whores class! haha
and i love 5th cauz jesus,jessica, marisel?, bessy, and jackie r all awesome ppl to cram into a lil table and paint with hha.

i havent really written about the whole justin thing. and i gues sim not gonna stop thinking about it until i really let it go. cauz all im doing by pretending it was nuttin is pretending its not there anymore and its never going to elave like that without getting rid of it. so i duno. i gues sim really just admitting to myself thru this stupid journal that it really is over and were not gonna end up talking again. like w.e i guess.

yesterday i got into thinking about how ppl must see me as? cauz i was talking to my wife jack on the phone and he randomely told me "you must be a whore, your to hot not to be". and ok most ppl would take it as a compliment but wtf. i dun wana be coming off as a whore. i man ok i liek to ahve fun but its not like i sleep with EVEYRONE. i draw the line on what i do with ppl, and i draw it right b4 sex lol, no sex for ppl who im not datin. i liek to have fun and i dun see nuttin wrong weitht hat. god dmn it i must be writin this cauz somehow i feel and know i am kinda whoreish. lmao! ay i hate this journal.once u start writing it really comes to u and u start writing things and realising how u feel about things, like me bieng a whore, fuk i am one. i ened to stop lmao. i need to settle down, even though i dun like commitment or im scared of it like ashley says haha

i lvoecoral parks library. its so different from my schools lol. its a reall library, and its bigger than miami springs actuall library! lmao!

well this entry has been long enough i guess. maybe ill go and try to talk o these "group memebers" who continue talking about fags and condoms....lmao

-ruben <3

time to update

2005-12-05T01:48:48Z

lmao. i was just sighning into my livejournal account and while i was typing in my user name i was like "damn, everything does eventualyend". lmao. thats all.

so anyways friday. i hung out with my old days BGF. from like 9th grade lol. evette. <3333. it was cool to catch up with her, its good to know shes one of those friends that no matter how long its been since you see them you can always hang out with them and feel close again. we took pics and did what not. hm i smoked with her and had cigarette sex. lmao.we were hungry so went to buy a turkey leg, only when we got it we didnt want to pay so we stole it! lmao. on our way to who knows where walking one of the people in the lil game booths where you have to throw a ball at the thingys to win threw a ball at me! and was like "i need to tell you something!" lmfao!. wierdo!
at school i took a pic kissing my lesbian friend. lmao!. fun?

saturday me emily her mom and my mom went to the flea market to look for animals for my ranch. and see all the shit they got. lmao me and emily were cracking up cauz i didnt think about it but i was wlaking around hialeahs flea market with a fukin doral shirt on. haha. represent!?
we walked around and saw everything, then went to one of her moms friends houses to eat.
we got back and i talked to danny for who knows how long lol.
hm then my mom made me go to gabys house to go eat and have dinner with her family. emily went and tits.

today. i went to the ranch with the family. took amd pics with my bro sister and family. love everyone!
i finally realised family is the most important thing int he world. there always going to be there for me, even when eveyrone else sees me unfit to be with or w.e, there always gonna be there. love u pinches!

-ruben <3

omg

2005-11-28T20:00:43Z

ok just got back from shcool.
found out my oh so awesome mother invited danny to some thingy for dinner! like WTF.
w.e gonna go eat at some seafood restaurant with the family AND him ugh.
i swear no one accepts ive gotten over and moved on to better things.

hmm ive been at my ranch all weekend and just got back today.
emily went with los putos.
lol.
we ate shit and what not.

today school was so awesome lmao.
i fukin loe u ashley!
"ruben txt him you wana pee on him!"
"no ashley!!!! im not into those things!"
"now!!!"

lmao oh bro i heart my ashley haha.
so w.e haha ashley and me were eating shit and she made me txt justin that i wanted to pee on him.. lmao.
lmao ashley he txt me back saying " i wana pee on u to" lmfao!!!
haha u know since u wanted to know so badly whaty it was he responded lmao.
i heart u u dumb fag if u read this lmao.

hmm omg i took my sexy sweater today and it got stained! i hate u puta!
lmao. from lvoe to hate. haha

gtg ima go do something with my life. haha

-ruben <3

ay my tummt hurts.

2005-11-25T12:55:45Z

ok so its the day after thanksgiving. enjoy the turkey sandwhiches and the day old ham!
yesterday was fun.
i saw rent...... and thats all ima say. oh and that the movie sucked.
ok so b4 jolly came i called andrea up and told her to meet me in the park so we like went to the park, then jolly was on her way so we started walking home, andrea saw my japanese chickens lmao. and w.e
we all hung out in my room for a while until andrea had to go home.
me and jolly stayed here and ate! yessss eaaatt!
lol i was so dissapointed tho! i got full with like a lil piece of turkey and some chingadera of ham. lol
so w.e johnathan his cousin and his almost cousin alex came over lol.
we all hung out here. johnathan was desperate to find my myspace and see the ppl i talk to, so ugh somehow he got it, and me and jolly were runnin around like crazy trying to make sure ppl didnt see it! lol
so w.e then me and jolly wer elike tired so like around 1 we decided to lay on my bed and just rest to madonna in the background haha.
hmm jack called me, i talked to him for a lil.
then he had to go to sleep lol.
and then jolly left like at 2.
fun fun.
cant wait till next turkey day lol

-ruben <3

turkey!

2005-11-24T14:23:25Z

ok so like today is thanksgiving. yay for that. yeah w.e
ne ways so like alot has been going on lately.
i love life! lol or maybe its just the madonna cd on full blast in the background. lmao
so sloowly so slowly so slowly!
lmao.
so yeah uhm lets start of from yesterday and thats it.
yesterday started night shcool.
didnt really show up lmao. danny made me skip! i swear it was his influence! ugh!
lmao
u suck whore.
n e ways we hung out w.e
got home at like 11 ready to pass out lol.
hmm and then today i woke up! gotta help around la casa cook and shit cauz everyones coming agian this yeart. and jolly! yay! my eating buddy1 lmfao
so w.e
woohoo omg i love this cd!
n e ways.
like ill updatelater i cant think staright haha....

-ruben <3

like oh so earlyagain!

2005-11-19T11:13:54Z

gosh its like becoming my bad habit to update this chingadera in the morning lol.
w.e i thought i was gonna get a good sleep in and wake up late and all that good shit but instead i woke up at 6, i guess my internal clock w.e the hell is used to waking up at 6 for school now lol.
well today ima go watch harry potter with jolly and my bro.
like i so cant wait for the movie!!! omg omg and i have to watch jarhead, jesus says its like all sexual and what not, and i have to watch rent for sure bro lol.
and then ima go to santas hopefully evtte could still go, and ima meet jose over there, and joe . lol.
so yesterday was a fun day.
random ppl grabbing my ass in the hallways. and then checking me out. lmao didnt i feel oh so special?.
i think not.
so the hihlight of eysterday was actually art class with jackie jesus and some other ppl there lol.
it was awesome.
we spent the whole day talkin bout barbies, taking craps, and random shit there lmao.
after school i came home rested and just ate shit.
exciting day up ahead!

-ruben <3

way to early!

2005-11-18T11:22:57Z

ahhh i just have to update this mierda about how awesome the madonna CD is!!!
ugh its like total awesomeness.

well anyways... how random today of all days i realised i have to get over someone i really cared about. i mean i just woke up randomely and was like ugh.... i need to get over him cauz i duno it seems like things are becoming distant.
isnt that the hardest part about really caring about someone and spendin so much time on them? you get so attached and then when its time to let go you find it hard to?
well w.e
off to school. got a jean day! woho!

-ruben <3

eventualyitends @ 2005-11-17T14:34:00

2005-11-17T19:35:55Z

its thursday.
had a half day.
so im here with kathii.
lol shes trying to get my snake buyt shes scared! hes just so big! lmfao
anyways hmm ill update later on w.e happens.
hmm saturday im going to santas.
maybe meet up with jose.
see ya later!

-ruben <3

i heart journalism!

2005-11-16T15:48:02Z

ok so im like here in journalism with ashley!
gosh i cant believe we never took advantage of the computers in the back until today! lol
so w.e me and ashley r here on las computers. shes finishing her story and going crazy cauz the thingy is doing random things lol.
and im surfing my myspace and talking to jose thru text.
hmmm well yesterday was my first day of my new exercise plan lol.
i run to dolphin mall and back every night. it took 2 hours yesterday and whenn i got back i was dripping in sweat and my shirt was like literlly soak!!!! like see thru soak lmao.
so w.e
hmm well im going to go now and keep on with my texting obssesion lol.

-ruben <3

like omg!

2005-11-15T11:53:11Z

ok so its tuesday. and once again im writing about my life for my mind which likes to forget all the little things that happen thru out the day that make me happy and sad
well hmm YESTERDAY will be the topic lol
ok so it was monday, who likes mondays? ugh they suck. so fukin boring.
but w.e went to school.
talked to justin, it turns out his mom called me cauz she found out about him.
pobresito.
hm theres this kid i met thats like totally obssesing over me, and i feel oh so special lol.
after school i went to go eat dinner with la familia and some clients or w.e
we went to macaroni grill.
ugh i love the waiters there! oh so sexy!!!
haha
n e ways that was about it.
ugh my phones not charged yet!!!!!!!! no mroe phone from now on cauz i end up going to school with no battery! lol
well thats it home fries!!!
oh and the bottom part of my eye area is like twitching! i told my mom and she says its nerves.... ugh how embarassing i have to go to school witha twitching eye!!!!
lmao

-ruben <3

long overpass

2005-11-08T11:35:15Z

wow its been like eight days since my last update.
w.e im not even going to try and recap every day cauz id kill myself and plus i still need to dress for school.
so w.e its tuesday, 2 more days of school this week.
yesterday i went to school, talked to ashley about her uhm "excitement" and well ate shit.
after school i went to see my aunt int he hospital with my family, she had a little girl weighing like uhm 7 pounds. ugh everyones like omg isnt she pretty!? but like hello i duno u cant even tell any facial thingys how can i say shes pretty lol.
w.e uhm i decided to talk o this kid on the phone while i was there since i was bored. and i hadnt returned his calls in like 3 days lol.
so uhm i got lost int he hospital haha. and i refused to ask for help cauz its really sad.
and w.e i was walking around endlessly for like 1 hour.

this weekend i went to my rancho. uhm ranch storys? no.
that will be kept between me and those rancheros lol.

-ruben <3

p.s omg lookin back at my entrys i see that every time i write i have a sad or mad moood!!! like WTF lol. n e ways yeah im not sad now or n e more

a thoughtful session

2005-11-02T00:50:04Z

today i stood under the hot shower.
the water beating down on my body.
i looked out the window and saw a moth flying about, attracted by the light in the bathroom.
as i stood there admiring the moth, i couldnt help but think maybe it was my fault its life was bieng stood in time flying about my window because of the light i was causing in the bathroom.
i watched it for 5 minutes give or take, and out of the corner of the window i saw a gecko appear, also admiring the moth.
the gecko caught on to the moth's movements and soon had it in its jaws.
the moth was gone, inside the gecko.

it tought me life isnt made for those who get trapped easily by earthly beautys or "lights", its for those who make something out of themselves and who easily overcome problems in life.
if the moth could have given up on the light and moved on his life would not have ended by that gecko.

-ruben <3

a note to self

2005-11-01T12:35:55Z

ok ruben, you officially need to stop. you need to realise half the things your doing are not getting you anywhere.
these past two weeks have been so packed with friends all the time, that you havent been able to do any of the things you enjoy doing, and you have not had time to be by yourself and think straight without having a million people in your room screamin or talking.
your stressing yourself to the point that your returning to old habits, and your stressing yourself to the point that your becoming emotionally unstable.
your taking your stress out on people you love, and your constantly walking a thin line of frustration.
a note to self, i need to stop and realise exactly what i want.

so tired!

2005-11-01T11:13:41Z

i fukin hate days like this. i feel fukin sick as hell.
my nouse is stuffy, and when its not its dripin with bugars. haha.
my head hurts, i feel like my head has pressure in it, and everything just hurts.
i was mad at a friend earlyer for causing my phone to not be able to charge but after playing around with the charger for 1 hour! no lie. i finnaly put it in a position that its charging lol.
so yesterday was halloween. i woke up and went to my dads place to pick up halloween decoration shit.
jennifer came over and helped me put everything up, i heart her.
kathy came by like at 1 and stayed here while everyone came and went trick or treating.
everyone got together like at 6 and everyone went trick or treating.
it was me,edel,stefano, johnathen, jennifer, casey, kathy, sylvia, debbie, tito, and like some other friends of johnathens.
it was fun. we got tired of getting wet so we all came to my house, everyone drawed on ym wall and left there little marks lol.

i talked to danny on the phone and he said he had no feelings for his ex n e more. obviously the kid thinks im retarted cauz i would never again get with him. in fact hes lucky i even got with him time after time because of the fact i only date ppl once, and once its over its over for ever.
w.e

eventualyitends @ 2005-10-30T08:59:00

2005-10-30T14:05:20Z

ok so im awake... at like 9 in the morning, what the hell is wrong with me!?
my moms making me go to church, i mean i dont really have to go but i duno i kind of feel like going... maybe its time for a change. so im going to get ready and go to church..... and then hang out with la famililia because it is sunday.
yesterday was a very upsetting, annoying, fun, happy every fukin emotion possible day!
i went to doal isles in the morning and hung out there while my dad played soccer and what not. lol got in trouble with the securitys like 5 times for wrestling with my brother and jolly haha.
we went to my house after and everyone came over.
and then i went to jollys caa and we chilled there. we watched house of wax and i passed out lol.
ugh i woke up and my pants were un buttoned, lmao i dun think n e thing happened i think they were just messing with me haha
got home and met up with johnathan, edel, gaby, jennifer and of course me lol.
w.e we all hung out for a little and emily came over uhm... went to the pool at 2 in the morning to i duno.... w.e ay i have to go get ready lol

ay justin if u read this we have to have a talk. lmao, fukin nerd.

-ruben <3

how we wish the days could grow longer

2005-10-29T13:14:21Z

oh man yesterday was awesome.
went to see saw2 with gaby,johnathan,michael,jennifer,edel,tito,cheryl, tiffany, and two of johnathans friends.
the movie is like awesomeness!!!no lie its really good.
so anyways after we went to see if the whole hooligans halloween thignwas gonna happen but i couldnt contact anybody so i drove to dantes house (the main hooligan DJ) and found out it wasnt happening.
so w.e at dantes i picked up jolly and brought her to my hosue and me tup with everyone again to play man hunt. but w.e no one wantd t play so we ended up chilling in my casa for a little.
then johnathans curfew came so we had to go and we chilled in front of his house listening to music and playing confession time,spin the bottle, and what not.
when it was time for johnathan to go inside he pulled me aside and had a "talk" with me.
w.e i have feelings for someone else.
walked around with edel jolly and tito for a while then it was time to go inside... i mean at 2 in the mornin you would think its time to go in right!? lol

i talked to justin. he was all mad at me cauz i asked him how he felt after the whole week of the hurricane..
i duno why the hell he got mad in the first place saying that "if you asked it means you dont really wana be with me"
bro i dun think i can care for that kid any more then i do.
and i got pissed off when he said some stupid comment about michael and johnathan.
he was all like "for all i know you probably did have sex with them" or some shit liek that.
w.e if i wanted to do shit with anyone this whole week i would have done it. but no my stupid ass has to say no to everyone and no do things with anyone because i want him, and at the end he thinks i did things anyways AND got mad at me for asking...
w.e

jolly stayed at my house and we had a sleep over hehe. shes currently sleeping but ima go wake the btich up haha.

is it goodbye or just another beginning?

-ruben <3

eventualyitends @ 2005-10-28T13:46:00

2005-10-28T17:55:17Z

o.m.g i got like my power and internet back. well this week has been seriously one of the best ever! it took a hurricane to get all the kids around doral lakes together but it happened lol. well ok i dont plan on bieng on the internet for a while or this journal... a while as in a couple of days lol, so ima like rewind my life in this journal and wright about everythign that happeneed only because time from now i wana read this and be like "omg that happend!!! and ome i remember that day!!!" lol. so anyway its easyer to remember backwards so here we go.

today(friday)- woke up and walked around the nieghboorhood with michael, onyl loser besides me awake at that time haha. had to go out with my dad and do some stuff like look for water ice and what not, and got home and met up with johnathan, edel, gaby, emily, and everyone else and we decided were all gonna go see saw 2 later on today so thats gonna be awesomeness. right now im waiting for these losers to hurry up and come over so we can like hang out or w.e lol

thursday-ok so yesterday i hung out with eveyrone again, we all ate breakfast togetehr lunch and dinner lol. emily me jenny and gaby made a cake and waited for everyone else to get there. then we all went outside and played man hunt, lol this hurricane brought out the childish side in all of us. i ripped my pants even more they were!!!! the whole went from my crotch to my knee haha, which michael had no time taking advantage of. lmfao jk jk.

wensday- woke up and had breakfast with everyone at my house. then we decided another day at home would kill us all so we went to the movies, we saw elizabethtown and the fog, ugh both movies were uhm good? lmao dun ask me cauz i wasnt uhm watching the movie? i was uhm.... having fun.
lmao jk jk. omg this journals gona piss so many ppl off haha. but yeah uhm i did some stupid thigns but w.e ill live.after like at 12 midnight we went to gabys house and we all had beer and just stayed up talking bout puerto rican and cuban jokes lol.

tuesday- we all walked around saw what the hurricane did and what not. i had a sleepover. hmm then at night we all went to emilys house and played truth or dare lmao. more like dare cauz whenever I picked truth it was made into a dare haha. w.e of couse everyone like so wante ot make out with me so eveyron hgad to dare me to make out with someone haha.

monday-........... ay monday wasnt a good day.... and im like oh so tired ot even try and recap haha.

like anyways im out. auz i gotta go get ready to go to el mall and ee saw 2. bye!!!!!

-ruben <3